A little explanation...

The title of this blog is a little dramatic, just like me... ;) I am a mom, wife, grad student and a MFT trainee.  While in reality I am not a complete Hot Mess I often feel like I am and feel like I can do and be so much better.  I do what I can to stay afloat. My house is clean enough.  My kids are happy and healthy enough.  I do well in my classes (I am getting my Masters in Marriage and Family Therapy).  I eat relatively healthy (I had gastric bypass almost 3 years ago and have maintained most of my weight loss).  I can look nice when I want to.  My husband and I have a good relationship.  I struggle with depression but I am feeling better (that took a while).  I am happy, most of the time.  But I want more.  I want to live a better life.  I want to feel more in control of my home, my health, and my emotions. As I start to really practice being a therapist (just started my practicum for school) I am reminded that I still have a lot of growing to do, mentally and emotionally.  To me part of growing mentally and emotionally requires that I take better care of myself, my home, and my relationships.  I want to feel like I have it more "together."  I want to be genuine with my clients and help them to lead more productive lives.  In order to do this I feel like I need to make some fundamental changes in my life.  This blog will follow my journey as I attempt to go from a Hot Mess to a Happier person.